When writing, especially when writing novels or other works that demand a significant amount of time, it's easy to fall prey to vanity. It's easy to think about publication, and how to alter and change your story until it's what you think of as "publishable." It happens to everyone, even seasoned authors who've published forty books and are working on number forty-one. You might think that worrying about producing a "publishable" book should be an author's first concern, but you'd be wrong.
It happens to me sometimes. In fact, it happened this week. I was working on the first draft of a novel that as yet has no title, and I started approaching it all wrong. I started thinking about what my agent would want, what the editor might change, and how the publisher might market the book. Instead of writing a first draft, I was working on what would probably be the third. And I was skipping the most crucial steps, so I began to lose the core of the story I was trying to tell. Not good.
When you're at the beginning of your journey, when you're just starting to write that book, you absolutely shouldn't be focused on getting published. Until you have a workable product, there's no point in worrying about what you'll eventually do with it. So forget about being published. Dismiss the vanity that comes with imaging yourself as a bestselling author. Put all that aside.
I had to. I managed to. After two days of playing agent/editor/publisher, I remembered that I am a writer. My job is to use the power of the written word to weave a tale that's consistent, well written, and has a solid theme and premise. And I have to focus on that job until it's done. First draft, here I come.
Leave your vanity at the door when you first start working on that novel. Don't think about the world or how your neighbor might react to your words. Write a powerful story, regardless of genre, without any concern for how it might eventually be received. There's time for polishing and primping later. Pretend that no one but you will see the story. You'll stick it in a drawer somewhere and eventually, after you're dead and buried, one of your great-grandchildren might find it. Craft the story you need to tell. Later, hopefully with the aid of a skilled editor, it can be turned into something that may eventually sell to the general public. But now is not the time for that.
Once I'd remembered this, my fingers flew over the keyboard. My first draft is coming along nicely, my characters are developing (when they're not stopping in at the local pub for a beer), and the plot is shaping up. Of course, I had to delete the first two days' worth of work, but that's okay. The 'delete' key is there for a reason.